Have you ever had an experience so extreme you just wanted to disappear or die for it to end? Or an experience which made you question God why He is letting this happen to you of all the people in the world? Maybe your answer is yes or it may be no. Let me share to you a chapter of my life.
My name is Sophia, a 27 year old first born of my parents, active and passionate about life, love, and everything that I love. I’ve always been healthy, or so I thought. I don’t get sick very often. Just the common cold and cough once in a while and I seldom have fever.
Around October or November of 2015, my church mates kept on telling me that I look rather pale than usual. I was working and studying at that time so I told them, “Oh, it’s probably because I lack sleep and rest”. They kept on noticing it up to early the following year.
Come February of 2017, I noticed I get tired very easily and have difficulty breathing by just taking one flight of stairs. It was getting very unusual. Still, I didn’t seek medical attention.
After a month, it got worse. All of a sudden, my blood pressure hiked up to 180/100 for unknown reasons. I had no history of high blood pressure. There was also edema around my eyes, my cheeks, and my thighs down to my feet. That was when I went to the doctor for a check up.
So What Was It?
We found out through the laboratory examinations that my creatinine level was at 1,300 wherein the normal level is 106 (max). The doctor had me admitted to a hospital immediately and was seen by a nephrologist. My kidneys are damaged. To what extent? We didn’t know.
You could just imagine how shocked my family and I were at that time. The doctor was telling me that I have to undergo dialysis asap since my creatinine level is very high at the same time I was trying to digest in my mind all that was happening at that moment.
March 31, 2016, I was admitted at UST Hospital and had my first minor operation- IJ Catheter Insertion. I was scared but I know that God was with me and so I prayed hard and told Him that I trust Him and to take care of me throughout all of what was happening. I had my first hemodialysis the same day and had the worst vomiting experience I ever had. Even after my first session, whenever I will smell something I don’t like, I’d vomit.
It didn’t end there. My second session was really traumatic and so was some other sessions I had. I’ve experienced cramps in my entire body, extreme chills, hematoma, blurring of vision, elevated blood pressure, unimaginable dizziness, alopecia, and palpitations. What was worst was that I can’t drink high amount of liquids since my kidney can’t excrete them anymore.
God is always and will always be with us.
Through all of these, I know God was with us. Whenever I was feeling pained, I will pray to Jesus Christ and the pain will subside and eventually be gone. I also saw how God had made my family closer and more loving than before. He gave us the courage, strength, resources, and all other things that we needed at that time.
God’s love was made known to us in so many ways. One, the support we got from our relatives, church mates, work mates, friends, and other people we don’t even know. They would send me bible verses and inspirational messages to keep my spirit up. Most of all, they prayed for me and my family. Prayer is the most powerful weapon one can have in this world. 🙂 Second, Kirby, my fiance at that time and now my husband, took care of me without hesitation nor reservation. God showed me that Kirby’s love for me is sincere and true. He never left me despite the fact that I can never live as normal as other people do. Then, the medical team members were all sincere and nice. They were all warm and cheerful which made me feel a little better.
All the while that we were in the hospital, my father kept on looking for a kidney donor. Simultaneously, we kept on praying about my condition.
One day, we finally found a donor. A man a year older than me. We got him tested and all the laboratory work ups needed was done. Guess what?! We were a perfect match. Our blood type, our kidney tissues, and other stuffs I can’t remember right now. My doctor said that it was a miracle because that chance only happens in one in a million. It’s truly a gift from God!
The night before my kidney transplant operation, I was nervous as nervous can get. I tried distracting myself by playing on my mobile phone and watching TV. Kirby tried telling me funny stories, too. To no avail, I still can’t get it out of mind. I was afraid that something might go wrong during the operation.
Amazingly, after praying to God to help me rid of my worries and asking Him to be in control of the operation, I relaxed. Come the day of the operation, I was surprisingly calm. The operation was successful!
My recovery went exceedingly well. My doctor said I’m doing great and my organ functions are returning to normal again. My creatinine level is at the normal range. (Thank God for that!) My strength, stamina, vision, and cheerfulness all came back. (Yey!) Of course, I still have to be extra careful with everything now. I’m prone to getting easily infected because I’m taking anti-rejection medications. The bright side? I have a new kidney, I can drink lots of water, and I feel a whole lot better.
I have tons of things to be thankful for! I have a lot of people in my life that I’ve learned to appreciate even more. This experience made me see how important it is to cherish and to take care of one’s body. I’ve learned that people, no matter where they are in life, experiences different levels of difficulties and trials in their lives.
God loves you!
God loves me. I know that in my heart. You might ask me how I can say that despite what I’ve been through. But you see, sometimes, He shows us things and teaches us “His ways”. For God’s said in Isaiah 55:8-9,”(8) For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.(9) For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts'”.We may not understand it at first but eventually, you’ll see why and you’ll appreciate Him even more. Why? Because He made you stronger, wiser, bolder to share His love, and most of all more grateful and appreciative of even the smallest of things.
God is love. It is His love which is so powerful, it can move mountains. Surely, it can get you through any situation. You just have to have your faith in Him and keep on praying. In the end, you’ll see the amazing works of His hands.
I hope I have inspired you to live life with God by your side. Not as a sidekick but as your mentor, guide, light, provider, counselor, comforter, and all other amazing things that He is. Words will never be enough to describe His gloriousness and greatness.
Cheers to having a meaningful life! Cheers to LOVE!
God’s awesome words (“,)
James 1:2-3, “2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance”.
Joshua 1:9, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”